Well what a year it has been.
I went back to uni. I am now half way through my post graduate diploma in perianaesthetic care. I have really gained so much from going back to uni. Not just knowledge (which has definately grown) but also confidence to do what I do best! I loved going down to melbourne for study days and applied for a job at the Alfred. Its still up in the air, they told me they would like to have me as part of the team but my lack of experience means they would like to give me a longer orientation. Work up here is busy at the moment and they can not give me time off to go down there. So I will give them a call at the beginning of next year and see if they are still interested and look at getting time off in April. THen do part time in both places. Hopefully increase my knowledge skills and experience.

Another good note. My sweet sexy man and I got engaged. It is now only a smidge over 9 weeks til the big day and I am getting excited. Most aspects are fully organised, still just paying everything off. That almost long weekend in January is going to be fabulous. Regardless of weather and anything else its going to be special. I can't believe how wonderfully easy it has been to organise things. Only a few small hiccups but I'd rather have them now than the week/day before.

Two of our dear friends have also tied the knot. One of my bridesmaids married her man in a fabulous beach ceremony. It was hot, but it didn't matter too much. We had so much fun. Pizza and lasagne for tea!!!!
Then Kev's groomsman tied the knot. After a few last minute changes. see Kev's post for more details.

Despite all the ups this week has been tough. We had a baby die in theatre this week. I recovered the mother and it was tough. I couldn't work yesterday. I had to grieve. There wasn't anything anyone could do. I am feeling better. And will be back at work tomorrow with hopefully no trouble with focus.

Now to just tackle christmas, new years and then the WEDDING!!!!!!!! So much to do so little time!

RIP Farrah Fawcett. My thoughts and prayers go out to Ryan O'Neil and her family.

If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet then post this same sentence in your journal.

Well last night was definitely one to remember. I had organised a candle lit dinner. Kev and I sat back and relaxed. Then he asked me to marry him. Of course I said yes. Ok so thats the short version but am tired and should go back to bed. So we are engaged and going ring shopping later today. Am very excited and happy. The actually wedding may be a while off, but thats something we'll have to discuss down the track.

Yes I am excited. My honey and I went to see Chris Isaak at Sutton Grange Winery. HE IS AWESOME. It was a fantastic show. Definitely one of the best I have been too. He rocked he chilled he laughed. He is very cheeky at times. You really get the feeling he enjoys the show as much as the audience.
Top the night off, Kev and I had purchased merchandise during the show so we bypassed the massive line at the end of the show and got to meet Mr Isaak in person. I couldn't imagine a lovelier man. He thanked us for coming, signed autographs and shook hands with us (nearly broke mine). It was an awesome night, thanks Kev.
Unfortunately the food side of things suck. They ran out, or it was cold, or just plain revolting. Next time we are going to take our own picnic stuff even if we have to sit in the car park to enjoy it.

You Are An INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener with almost infinite patience. You have complex feelings, and you take great care to express them. In love, you see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow. You enjoy relationships when they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation. At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher. How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable

Your Red Umbrella Says You're Confident

When faced with adversity, you respond aggressively. A part of you enjoys being challenged. You don't back down easily. You have the confidence and character to lead. You are outrageously brazen with you ideas, opinions, and statements. You'll say what you think, and no one will silence you! On a rainy day: you should continue your plan to rule the world... while everyone stays home and naps

Wow, it may be a while before I can write again, not that I really write much here, but thats mainly cos my sexy man gets in first so I feel lame saying the same stuff he has shared.
This time I bet him to it.
This weekend Kev and I went away for the weekend. We went to Maldon which is about 20mins drive from our house. Having never been there it was like really getting away, except when I forgot something we didn't need to panic we just returned home when it was convenient,
Maldon is a lovely quite country town. Lots of antique shops and book stores etc. So we spent part of Sunday perusing the township. We stayed just out a little from the town at the pioneer village. We got there Saturday afternoon and explored the village. It was interesting, needs a bit of work and somebody along the way has added some very obviously non authentic stuff. But still it was fascinating. We had dinner there, which was ok. Can't be bothered with details. Thankfully I took one of our DVD players which saved us in the evenings as the TV reception was appalling even with the rabbits ears they had on top of the TV. Also Kev brought me a miniature red rose plant on Saturday which I adore and can't wait to have our own place so I can actually plant it in the ground.
Sunday as I said we poked around Maldon. Then came back in the evening to have tea at the Maldon Hotel. Cute nice, very relaxed.
Monday we left reasonably early even though we had late checkout because we had to go up to Echuca to pick up the dogs and so Kev could pick up his car (he had the day off). Then I raced back home to catch up with a friend to go out to La Trobe to find some uni text books we need. Yes thats right I am going back to uni. I am going to do my Graduate diploma in Perianaesthetic care. If later on I decide to do my Masters it will only take me one year part-time. Its going to be hectic though. Lots to do and I still have to work almost full time. I am dropping about 4 hours a week. I honestly dont know how people do this uni work and then have kids as well. I couldn't cope with that, which is partly why I am doing this now, so I dont have to do it when I have kids.
Anyway I am getting tired and should go to bed.
Night night.

Your Word is "Fearless"

You see life as your one chance to experience everything, and you just go for it! You believe the biggest risk is being afraid and missing out on something amazing. Sometimes your fearlessness means you're daring. You enjoy risky activities. And sometimes your fearlessness means you're courageous. You're brave enough to do the right thing, even when it's scary.

Well I am sort of excited. My man and I are thinking of building a house. We have found a block we like but can't put a deposit on the land until we qualify for the loan (I am still on work probation). We have also had a beautiful house designed by a builder we like. We are still looking around at builders to make sure we are getting a good deal. There are hurdles as there always will be, but hopefully we can get through them and August (if all goes to plan) we should be moving into our very first home.

Today is a sad day for me and many others. One of the most talented men of stage passed away over night after having a stroke the night before. Mr Rob Guest currently starring as the Wizard in Wicked. He also played the Phantom longer than anyone. I was so impressed by his performance in Wicked that I was so looking forward to what he would do next. When we saw Wicked we had front row seats and leaving I was so excited cos we had been so close that he almost spat on me (not intentionally).
Thank you for you wonderful contribution to theatre Mr Guest. Rest in peace. My thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends.

Ok so its been quiet a while since I posted anything. I am so sorry bout that. I am just a bum, plus I have been sick too.
I have finished my position at the public hospital. There are definately some people who I will miss and am so glad that I met them. But on the whole I am glad its over. The last couple of weeks have been fairly good work wise and I guess because I made the decision and got a new job I was much more relaxed and not at all worried about what people thought of me.
Tomorrow is my first day working in recovery. I am really looking forward to it but am also totally shitting myself. I haven't done any recovery for about 7 months. I am hoping its like riding a bike - once you can you always can!!! I hope that the people I will be working with are lovely and i really am happy there. If things dont work out in my new job I dont know what Kev and I are going to do. But I wont think of that now, just look forward to my new start tomorrow.
Last night Kev and I took his brothers to Sunrise Circus. I haven't been to the circus in probably 13 years or more. Its quite a small circus troop, but very skilled. I was white knuckled for the entire trapeze act because all I could see was the poor trapeze woman falling from such a height with no net and me then jumping chairs to help her. I was terrified. Quite sure I didn't breath through the whole routine. All the same it was very exciting to watch. I think the boys really enjoyed it too. However ( I am totally going to anger animal lovers, RSPCA and WISPA people all over the world by my next comment) I totally missed having animals there. There weren't even horses or dogs. Nevertheless it was a lovely evening and I am glad we went.
I have been sick twice in the last two months and also had to take time off of work with my back pain. I am still getting over pharyngitis so still tired and feeling sorry for myself.
Well I am feeling a little sleepy so I might just go have a nap. Or maybe take the dogs out for a stroll.

I know its been a while. For the most part its pretty much same thing different day.

WORK: pretty good. Doing a bit more orthopaedic stuff which is great. Getting that excitement back. Learning new stuff. The thing is this time round I am not terrified of the new surgeons I am working with. I worked with this surgeon yesterday. He was so nice. Explained heaps of stuff, what I was looking at and so on. Today I worked with this surgeon who previously cracked a mental because I passed on a message from the anaesthetic reg. I guess he doesn't remember, cos he was actually pretty nice!!!!! Most people I work with are pretty cool. However one person that I work with in one of my favourite areas really treats me like an idiot. I have even worked with one particular surgeon more than she has and still she treats me like I dont know shit. It gets extremely irritating sometimes, but I am learning to deal with it and basically ignore her.

LOVE: Kev is still fantastic and wonderfully supportive. I miss him so much when he's not here Mon - Fri. Its very difficult as I wasn't expecting to be living alone when I moved here. I know he's been trying really hard to get work closer to our home, but its been difficult. We are looking at moving to the other side of Bendigo when our lease runs out so that he can stay in his current job and we can live together. Only time will tell how things play out in that regard.

HOME: Its my dad's 65th birthday at the beginning of August and we have brought him a puppy. He has been missing my dog who he used to walk and spoil. It is the cutest thing ever though has a tendency to keep me awake crying his little heart out. Hopefully tonight he will settle nicely outside with our two dogs. I went home last weekend, which was nice. It was my sister's birthday. Her new house is lovely and big. I caught up with some friends which was totally awesome. Had such a blast. However saturday morning I stopped by one friends house, because he hasn't been answering his phone - even when I ring from my silent home number. He wasn't replying to any emails, so I didn't tell him I was coming home and just showed up on his doorstep. He hardly spoke to me. He said he was sick, but there was definitely something more. I have never seen him so sad. He said he didn't want to talk to me about it. I asked if he even wanted to be friends. He just shrugged his shoulders. I think he expected me to fight, to beg him to stay friends with me (he is also an ex-boyfriend), but I just let him go. Its been 3.5 years since we split up. We both had moved on. I thought he was one of my best friends, but now thats all gone. It made me extremely miserable to start with, but I had grieved a lot already as I kinda expected it. I had hoped it was all in my head and we were going to laugh about how silly I can be, so it was a bit of a shock when it happened. I miss him. But he has to do whatever it is he needs to do without me. I think a lot of it has to do with me moving to Victoria. Ever since I've known him he talked about moving to Melbourne but never did. I always felt he blamed me a little for that, but I always said I would move here if he wanted I just wanted to finish uni. Now I moved here because I feel deeply in love with a fantastic man who I want to spend the rest of my life with I think the truth became clear and he couldn't handle that I was doing the things he always wanted. I haven't done them because of him, its just how thing have turned out. Its sad, but I have almost complete closure. I will never have full closure because he said that he will never tell me why.

I am looking forward to Kev coming down tonight. I haven't seen him since he came down for tea with my parents. It's the longest time we've been apart since I moved.

Well life has kind of been an adventure lately. Start with crap then to awesome.
The local snot nosed kids from the high school have taken to letting our dogs out while no one is at home. This has led us to putting a chain and padlock on both gates as well as wiring the back gate together. It makes things a little more difficult but on the whole its livable. However, my man's dog has enjoyed his taste of freedom a little too much and has turned into Hudini. Subsequently he has spent two nights in the care of the RSPCA, which proved a tad expensive for us at $50 a pop to retrieve him. Kev's handyman work has secured the gate more and so far no further escape attempts have been successful.
Friday I was attempting to make soup when I had to duck down the street. I flicked off the stove, and ended up spending longer than planned at the shops. My shopping extravaganza was interrupted by a phone call from the sales guy selling our house saying our neighbour had phoned because our smoke alarm was going nuts. By the time I got home the place was filled with smoke. It still smells of smoke. My soup was black. I apparently hadn't turned the stove off all the way. I felt like such a ditz. Our neighbour was lovely and helped out a lot.
On the upside, Kev and I went and saw the new Indiana Jones movie. I loved it. Right up there with the rest. I definately would say they are going to make another one. I would go see that too.
Today is Kev and my one year anniversary. I can't believe how quickly time has flown. This is my first ever year anniversary so it is enormously significant for me. Kev is a wonderful man and I love him very much and hope we have many many more year anniversaries together. Next weekend we are going to Melbourne to celebrate. We are going out for dinner, but I dont know where too. Then we are going to see Michael Buble in concert!!!!!! Kev calls him my other boyfriend, cos I adore his music and talent so much and I scream like a teenager whenever he's on tv.
Then Sunday my bestfriend and her boyfriend arrive in melbourne and will come out to Bendigo to spend the night. Its only a short visit, as they both work and she's gone back to uni. But it will be SO awesome to see them.
During this time I also have 5 days off. I am very much looking forward to5 days off. Tomorrow is my third shift of 5 in a row. Which I know doesn't sound like much but shifts are 10 hours and you're pretty much on your feet the whole time it gets exhausting. Still love it though.
Well I had better head off to bed. Sweet dreams all. :)

OK so I am totally a slacker but I am back now, and who knows this may be a long one.
I have moved. I love Bendigo. My job is fabulous. I am learning so much. I can't believe how much I remember for the limited amount of scrubbing I did in my last job and how quickly I pick things up. Also I achieved my dream. I finally got to be a human retractor and put my hand inside someone's abdomen. I was so excited. It was more exciting than being part of a c-section. I am getting so much out of being there and what I am doing. This month is my final month of probation. I can't wait! I am still tired everyday when I get home, because I am still taking so much in. Next month I can start doing weekends and lates. I am interested to see what a difference it makes to my paycheque. It also means a bit more flexibility in when I work, which will enable me to go home a little more frequently.
I do suffer cabin fever on the odd occasion because I am still to make friends to socialise with. Well the students we had in theatre were great, so will definately be catching up with them. So far have been unable to go out with them as I have had other plans/committments. It will be awesome once Kev is here fulltime. We also haven't had visitors since my nephew and his exchange student were here so that doesn't help dispell the loneliness.
Kev and I are heading down to my parents house next weekend, back to good ole adelaide. I can't wait. Catch up with all my family and friends.
Still having problems with my back from the car accident. Standing doing long procedures has really upset my back quite a bit. I saw a massage therapist, reflexologist lady who I am seeing again tomorrow. Hopefully get it sorted out.
Off to Echuca tomorrow afternoon. Just for the night. Family birthday. At least I will be out a bit.
A friend of mine from Canada in coming down under next month. She is going to be in Sydney for a while, then heading down here to Melbourne. Hopefully she will be able to be here in time to come to Adelaide with me for my Dad's birthday. Hopefully I will be able to take some time off a we can spend a few days there. She can see the sights etc.. It will be a fun roadtrip thing too.
Well I am getting tired. Hopefully wont be such a slacker from now on.

2. What is your most guilty pleasure?
Chocolate

3. Have you ever seen someone die?
No, but seen a few after (shortly after) and even prepared someone to be taken to the undertaker.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Nope.

5. What was the last book you read for pleasure and would you recommend it?
'Break no Bones' by Kathy Reichs - Yes for anyone who is into crime or is into the show Bones

6. Name a personal hero.
My mum, Bono,

7. If a person you like doesn't feel the same way, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
I did once, he led me on and broke my heart. Will never do that again.

8. If a person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Get over it asap.

9. Is there anything that made you unhappy recently?
Pain from car accident. Loneliness - moving is much more difficult than I thought, man I miss my friends and family.

10. What do you want most in life?
to be happy and make the most of every moment.

11. Which of the 7 Deadly Sins do you think relates to you the most & why?
Sloth, I am pretty lazy if given half a chance. Envy I guess rears its ugly head every now and then.

12. What advice would you give to someone who thinks their whole world is falling down around them?
Not to give up, keep fighting. Take things one tiny step at a time.

13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
God, Kev.

14. What is your drug of choice?
Nicotine, I continue the daily battle to quit.

15. If you could keep any animal for a pet, what would you keep?
I have a dog. But if I could have an exotic animal, probably a Tiger or a Dolphin

16. Which fictional character could you most see yourself marrying?
Lex Luther - From the smallville series

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
In every possible way.

18. Do you have a motto?
Live today like it's your last.

19. What type of friends do you like?
Fun, crazy, kind, generous, sincere loyal and unique.

20. Do you have an all time favorite song?
Lots. At the moment 'Still Dirrty' by Christina Aguilera, 'Everything' by Michael Buble, '2hearts' by Kylie

21. Name three movies i just HAVE to see.
No Country for Old Men, I'm not there and Public Enemies

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Well what a year it has been so far. Perhaps I shall go back a little way to christmas perhaps.
Christams day was nice. Woke early to organise breakfast. My sister, her husband, and my nephew plus my neighbour and his girlfriend came over for breakfast with me and my folks. So it was lovely. Then I went to work for 5 hours over the lunch period. VERY quiet shift. Paid double time and a half. Even taking christmas eve as leave without pay I still made more than a normal fortnight!!!!!
Then I was off on anual leave for 10 days. Which was really nice. Went to my friend's wedding on Dec 29th. Very beautiful, but extremely hot day.
Then went back to Echuca with my darling man Kev. We took turns driving my car. Very interesting drive. I slept most of it - sorry honey its not you. There is something about being in a car, and me not driving, that makes me feel sleepy. I just can't help myself.
New years eve was nice. We had friends over for BBQ tea. Just nice a relaxed. I got my midnight kiss!!!! First real one. Then watched the end of the beatles special that was on tv. Then poped Zoolander in. Kev feel asleep with a beer in his hands and I sent him off to bed. I did fall asleep during the movie too.
Over the next few days I familiarised myself with Shepparton seeing as I had an interview at the hospital there. Prior to going there, they seemed really enthusistic about getting me to join their team. I got so much attitude from the theatre manager that I really started feeling like they may not want me there afterall. They said they would check my references and let me know.
The next day went back out to shepparton to look at a place to rent incase I got the job. It was revolting. Boys had been living there and it was just gross. I was sad, so I took myself shopping, which led to me finding nothing and being more sad. Then I got a call from my mum saying that someone from Bendigo rang to offer me an interview. I returned the call and the only way I was going to be able to get to bendigo was if they were able to fit me in that day. Fortunately they could so I left straight away and drove the 2 hours to Bendigo for my interview. The time just flew, as it turns out the manager I met at Kev's 10 year high school reunion. They seemed really eager to get me on board. I didn't realise it was a scrub nurse position which is pretty much the only aspect of theatre that I haven't had much experience in. But I said as long as they were willing to teach me I was willing to learn and still apply for the position. After an hour long interview, I left and called my mum to tell her that I really liked the hospital and it had a really great vibe about it. Not on the phone for 5 mins when I got call waiting. they offered me the job. So I will be working at Bendigo Health as of March 1st. I am really super excited about it. This weekend we went house hunting in bendigo and we fell in love. We found this gorgeous little white house with red brick fence. Its 3 bedrooms which is what we want but its also compact. Cute. We got application in and should hear yes or no sometime early next week. Really hoping for a yes. All we can do now is wait really.
I am currently working my butt off to afford the move. But it will totally be worth it. I can't wait. We are going to have a place to call our own!!!!

I was absolutely shocked to wake this morning to discover Heath Ledger had been found dead in his apartment allegedly from a drug overdose. Very sad and tragic. My thoughts go out to his family and friends but especially to his daughter Mathilda who will now grow up without a father.
He was a very talented young man with so much potential.

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